最近，心情very DOWN and very tired...为什么？
因为很多事情都令我觉得很烦...我真的很想很想放弃这一切，从头开始过...
其实我也很想放弃我现在读这的这颗，为什么我不要放弃？
因为家人，我很想告诉我的家人其实这颗很不适合我，这不是我想要的....如果我告诉我的家人我不要读了，他们会怎样想？我会让他们很失望，毕竟我是家里唯一的儿子....
我很羡慕我的两个姐姐那么的成功，她们自小都那么聪明，UPSR , PMR , SPM 全部full A's 而我呢？ I am such a “LOH'S FAMILY” FAILURE...
我非常地讨厌那些爱比较的relative，什么东西都可以拿来比一餐...can i ask , 学业有真的那么IMPORTANT吗？Do , Study fix your FUTURE?? i duno..i really dont think STUDY fix our future...
还有，如果那些relative真的要比，okay , fine ...go 比 SPORTS 啦...all of them are SUCKS in SPORTS, cuz they are FAT and LAZY..
for them , i think sports are not important...
recently i heard those my "aunt" say thier son's/daughter's are going out station(UK , US , JAPAN) , my mom told me , "KEVIN please study hard and in future , u will be like them go to other country to work and earn alot of money) what the heck , earn money y must go to other country ?? FUCK !!!!
以前当我每一次拿奖回到家的那个感觉时，都觉得很快乐...but when i tell my family , they will just ignore and told me , 只是拿奖罢了吗，收起来久了就会变废铁...ok , i will just walk away , but they will support me before i go for any competition...
by the way , i still miss my ATHLETIC that time , i miss that time i went for training , i miss that time we went for competition , i miss that time we get the medal , i miss that time we receive our medal at the stage.....
最近我非常没有那种mood去读书和考试了，我也不知道为什么...这真的不是我想要的...i wish to told my family what i want ...what is the consequence after i told them?? they will get angry ? dissappointed ?? sad ?? are they wasting money on me?? .......i duno , im not a predictor and i really make them feel disappointed many times.....
any1 can help me?? i dun think so .........what should i do now ?? ........ i wont go to sleep again , cuz i have sleep so many hour adi........
nowsaday , "LOVE"are not popping out on my mind adi , what i feel that is SINGLE can still be the best...and im fed up with "IT"
will this study make THE END of my future+life?? ( i need 1 answer)
*sorry for my 华语 not good...and i think this is the 1st time i use chinese to blog..
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