Thursday, November 4, 2010

有谁可以拿一把枪,在我的太阳穴前用力的一枪打下去....让我把这一些东西都给忘了
i love RIVER FLOWS IN YOU...

( 戴上耳机,听着歌曲的旋律,与旋律以外的吵杂声隔离,是一种享受)

Suffering+Tired+Stressful......

最近,心情very DOWN and very tired...为什么?
因为很多事情都令我觉得很烦...我真的很想很想放弃这一切,从头开始过...
其实我也很想放弃我现在读这的这颗,为什么我不要放弃?
因为家人,我很想告诉我的家人其实这颗很不适合我,这不是我想要的....如果我告诉我的家人我不要读了,他们会怎样想?我会让他们很失望,毕竟我是家里唯一的儿子....
我很羡慕我的两个姐姐那么的成功,她们自小都那么聪明,UPSR , PMR , SPM 全部full A's 而我呢? I am such a “LOH'S FAMILY” FAILURE...
我非常地讨厌那些爱比较的relative,什么东西都可以拿来比一餐...can i ask , 学业有真的那么IMPORTANT吗?Do , Study fix your FUTURE?? i duno..i really dont think STUDY fix our future...
还有,如果那些relative真的要比,okay , fine ...go 比 SPORTS 啦...all of them are SUCKS in SPORTS, cuz they are FAT and LAZY..
for them , i think sports are not important...
recently i heard those my "aunt" say thier son's/daughter's are going out station(UK , US , JAPAN) , my mom told me , "KEVIN please study hard and in future , u will be like them go to other country to work and earn alot of money) what the heck , earn money y must go to other country ?? FUCK !!!!
以前当我每一次拿奖回到家的那个感觉时,都觉得很快乐...but when i tell my family , they will just ignore and told me , 只是拿奖罢了吗,收起来久了就会变废铁...ok , i will just walk away , but they will support me before i go for any competition...
by the way , i still miss my ATHLETIC that time , i miss that time i went for training , i miss that time we went for competition , i miss that time we get the medal , i miss that time we receive our medal at the stage.....
最近我非常没有那种mood去读书和考试了,我也不知道为什么...这真的不是我想要的...i wish to told my family what i want ...what is the consequence after i told them?? they will get angry ? dissappointed ?? sad ?? are they wasting money on me?? .......i duno , im not a predictor and i really make them feel disappointed many times.....
any1 can help me?? i dun think so .........what should i do now ?? ........ i wont go to sleep again , cuz i have sleep so many hour adi........
nowsaday , "LOVE"are not popping out on my mind adi , what i feel that is SINGLE can still be the best...and im fed up with "IT"
will this study make THE END of my future+life?? ( i need 1 answer)

*sorry for my 华语 not good...and i think this is the 1st time i use chinese to blog..

Sleep..........

i've ask quite alot of people that how to relax??
they told me , go to sleep...

okay , i dun think sleep will relax , cuz when u wake up , u will still face the problem ........

This few days , im very tired + exhausted for everything. When i nothing to do , i just sleep.. I can sleep up to 12 to 15 hour per 24 hour..

sleep is apart of my life now.......